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keep looking shocked and move slowly towards the cake... -homer ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- ---------- word i'm old. <3 Tags: 27 yrs old, death is on the way, old
Current Mood:  old
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oh yeah perfect, now then computer, kill flanders. . . d'oooh $5000 for a computer and it can't handle a simple assignment. -homer ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- ------------------------------ word so i like 24, it's quite entertaining, and i'm probably too involved w/ everything and what not; and watching 24 while knitting makes me knit faster... i want to learn to hack so i can be l33t like the people that work at ctu. and i like how jack takes over things to do it his way basically what he just said to one of his co-workers was, 'i just killed 1 million people today, including people i cared about, if you don't want to be 1,000,001, do what i say' which i find absolutely amasing. i don't want to kill people, but i want to be kuel and l33t like jack. Tags: bauer power, l33t
Current Mood:  jealous
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the pink ones keep you from screaming. -grandpa simpson ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- -------------------------- word i need to stop making myself become so exhausted that i think stupid things and get all worked up over things that don't need to be worked up over. (nothing has been resolved from my previous posts as of typing this, i'm just saying...) Tags: being retarded, lame
Current Mood:  exhausted
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hello domino's? what do you mean you're not open?! no you call me back during business hrs!! i'll show you who's a recorded message!! -homer ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- -------------------- word WHY DOESN'T ANYONE FREAKING CALL ME BACK WHEN I CALL THEM?!you're not the only person in the world that is important you know. other people do exist. jerks. Tags: jerks, stupid people
Current Mood:  pissed off
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some of us prefer illusion to reality. -nelson ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- ------------------------ word probably. that's how you answer when really you want to say no, but you're in front of people and feel pressured to say yes. so you say probably, knowing full well that you won't, just to get out of committing to a definite answer. you can say no. i'd really prefer it if you did. rather than giving me a glimmer of hope that i should never have had to begin w/... i just hate it when you look me in the eye and say it. that's how i know. that's how i know you're lying. you look directly in my face and tell me what everyone else wants to hear. the lie that everything is happy and normal. just say you don't want to hang out w/ me any more. it's not like i need you or anything. i just thought i'd share part of my life w/ you but apparently you've stopped caring and don't want to be in my life any more... and you'll never read this, and you'll never know how i feel, and i'll just continue acting like everything is fine... Tags: jerk boys, probably
Current Mood:  upset
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oh! why must i be so voluptuous?! -homer ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- -- word so cindy knows now, i told her. it just sorta came out but yea... i suppose i should tell people more often when i am struggling w/ something. i haven't eaten anything today since the potluck at 1am although that is partially due to the fact that i have felt sick since the potluck at 1 am... but yea... i've realised that when i do this, i make myself weak, which makes me more susceptible to negative thoughts and feelings and behaviours. like right now, currently being very negative in my head right now, but i don't really have the energy to fight it off really... some day i'm going to erupt i know.. meybe i should start cutting myself andor do drugs, while i'm at it yay self-destructive behaviour! on another note though my cake was sort of a hit, well ok not really, people thought it was cute to look at but no one wanted to eat it... yay something else i suck at! i wish i could die right now and get it over w/... </3 Tags: being stupid, self-destructive
Current Mood: exhausted
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oh! why must i be so voluptuous?! -homer ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- -------------------------------- word so yea. word. so reeta called me out on it, and i'm admitting to it. lately i've developed some anorexic tenancies... it started out as i couldn't afford ice cream one week at work and so i didn't have any and then i lost 5 lbs... then i stopped eating out mostly, then i stopped eating unless i was around people, now i don't even do that i mean i do eat during the day to sustain myself. but... that's pretty much it. i usually try and eat the least possible calories i can get away w/ nobody really knows... i lie and tell people that i'm just watching what i eat... yea, i'm watching what i eat alright... except reeta, reeta knows. gail and sarah might have an idea... and you know. but it doesn't seem real. 'cause i'm just barely a size 10 again. and most anorexic people you can see their ribs, which you can't see mine, yet, and are size 2 or 0 or something, they look like a malnourished ethiopian child and their faces are usually sunken in which i am none of those things God told me tonight that my behaviour towards food is selfish. which i had never really thought about it like that before, but it's true. because i'm only thinking of myself when i'm starving myself and restricting my food intake. i told reeta i was only doing this for prom, but when prom is over though, i don't know if i'll be able to stop. i'm 7lbs away from being the weight on my driver's license. having a bf has made it worse i think, because his whole family is skinny, naturally, so i feel like i have to live up to that in order for him to like me and seeing his desktop picture didn't help any... and past experience dictates the fact that i've only had boyfriends when i've been this weight or smaller, usually smaller. so... it's more comforting to listen to the voice in my head telling me that i'm fat and unattractive than to believe anything else. reeta said she doesn't want to see me like this, i don't either. but i'm currently don't have much control over the situation... which i suppose is exactly where satan wants me. in not fighting/losing this battle i'm letting satan win, and it's weird to think of it like that, and that i don't mind it. there's more to say, but it is only depressing and i'm sleepy, the caffeine finally wore off i think... </3 Tags: anorexic, fat, unlovable
Current Mood:  depressed
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ralph, Jesus didn't have wheels. -sunday school teacher ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- ---------------------------------------- -------------- word so i have a car now, it's a 2003 ford focus it's white and the best part is, it runs! it's gonna take some getting used to as the controls are different from my old car but the best part is really that i totally felt the Lord in this whole deal i've been praying about this since mon, terribly distraught really and it's hard really to trust and not worry when you're praying for something you're concerned about. so as we were driving to the car emporium i'm praying again and i just sorta felt a peace about it and the guy was really awesome, he was more concerned about getting me in a car in payments i could afford than making a sale he even let me like borrow a car for the night to drive to work so my mom wouldn't have to drive me, that guy was awesome so initially last night he said my payments would be around 240ish, which is not too bad, it's better than what american last quoted me, which was 324, he may have been trying to work w/ me but brett was trying to work w/ me and he ended up getting my payments below his initial quote so... yea, 2003, 203 per month, it runs. so i'm happy i can just see God's fingerprints all over the deal. which is great. i like looking back and seeing where God has been. it's comforting and trust increases all the more so if you're in modesto and you need a car, go to the car emporium, the guys are great, and not pushy, it's off of kiernan and mc henry near that boyett gas station. it's the 2nd one from the corner <3 Tags: car owner, mobile
Current Mood:  pleased
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too upset for simpson quote. ---------------------------------------- --------------------------------------- word so today was pretty much like the song jury duty by the supertones. my car has not been running well for a while, i went to costco to get a battery that pat said he'd install i hate people at costco, not the people that work at costco, the people shopping at costco, so rude and inconsiderate, yea i don't want to relive that right now or ever. did not realise said battery would be so expensive... so i get to the mcclay's house pat does his thing, checks the radiator, just needs a new cap, thank God. installs the battery. good. so i'm leaving to go home 'cause i was tired and didn't need to be there any more and my car won't really shift into reverse and it won't shift past it. yea. i try in vain to get it into drive w/o breaking it. no good. pat comes out, takes the car a part he determines what the problem is but he can't really fix it. the car is like stuck inbetween reverse and neutral. he's like you're gonna need to take it to the shop to have that fixed, there's a shop like a couple of blocks away that he recommended but i don't have any money right now, which sux 'cause i just got paid. so i had to leave my car there for a while... so i called my mom to be sure she was home, and jodi took me home. she's not gonna help me out, which i didn't expect her to. at least she's driving me to work... i just want to crawl into a hole and stay there until everything is over with and then come out and have everything fixed and back to normal... Tags: broke, broken car
Current Mood: sad
Current Music: the o c supertones - jury duty
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oh sure, it's easy to point out my faults, it's even harder to shut up! -homer ---------------------------------------- ------------------------- word welp, i've done it, i've added a pic of me and my bf as my profile picture on facebook, soon on myspace... now i'm one of those annoying chicks that has a pic of her and her bf as the profile pic sorry if i make you vomit. i <3 him <3 Tags: boyfriend, pictures
Current Mood:  embarrassed
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dear God, we pay for all this stuff ourselves so, thanks for nothing. -bart ---------------------------------------- ------------------------ word so i'm shopping online on amazon to get something for a friend for their birthday, and i guess whenever you put a book in your wish list it'll tell you if the price has gone up or down since the last time you were visiting their site... so after i added the book to my cart for my friend a box pops up that says: Important Messages Please note that the price of God In Search Of Man A Philosophy Of Judaism has decreased from $6.49 to $5.18 since you placed it in your Shopping Cart. Items in your cart will always reflect the most recent price displayed on their product detail pages. Please note that the price of Reflecting the Glory: Meditations for Living Christ's Life in the World has increased from $5.61 to $7.38 since you placed it in your Shopping Cart. Items in your cart will always reflect the most recent price displayed on their product detail pages. Please note that the price of Following Jesus: Biblical Reflections on Discipleship has increased from $8.27 to $10.08 since you placed it in your Shopping Cart. Items in your cart will always reflect the most recent price displayed on their product detail pages. Please note that the price of Evil has decreased from $13.10 to $12.96 since you placed it in your Shopping Cart. Items in your cart will always reflect the most recent price displayed on their product detail pages. (i added the bold) i LOLed, then i tried to click on the book "evil" to see what it was 'cause i didn't remember what book i was looking at titled evil. so i clicked on the link and i got this message Important Message We're sorry. An error occurred when we tried to process your request. Rest assured, we're working to resolve the problem as soon as possible. You may try your request again or continue shopping. heh heh heh silly satan, increasing evil in my life : รพ and how true that statement is... <3 Tags: amazon, evil, ironic
Current Mood:  amused
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dad, women won't like being shot in the face -lisa ---------------------------------------- --------------------------- word i really don't want to talk about it, so i won't, but today was pretty much the worst father's day i've ever experienced. and that's all i'm going to say. i don't want to really relive it i have no father. </3 Tags: there is no father
Current Mood: unloved
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